Like most kids my era, Disneyland was probably the ultimatum of dreams and goals for a family trip. Going to Disneyland meant plenty for a child at that time.
So one day, on a casual evening, a dad told his child.
“Son, I’m taking you to Disneyland”
For the average kid, that was ethereal music to his ears. The kid almost leapt for joy at the sound of the word Disneyland.
Thereafter, almost every single day, all he could think about was that Disneyland trip. He made a short mental list of all the attractions he would visit, the things he would do. And he waited.
“Dad, when are we going to Disneyland?” he asked one day.
“Soon…” was the response that returned.
The boy continued to wait, feeling increasingly dejected with each passing day. At times he wondered if that was all a dream.
Frustrated, the boy asked his father once again…
“Dad, its okay if we’re not going, just let me know.”
The same response came back from his dad… “Soon, my boy, be patient”.
And this went on for quite awhile.
Until one day, the boy’s dad had to go away for awhile.
Definitely there was not going to be Disneyland anymore.
The boy was devastated and struggled to piece together why this could have happened. Did he not deserve the trip? Did he do something wrong? What exactly could have been the reason?
But there was nothing he could do…
As the title suggests, these are worthless achievements.
I untangled my the cable on my mouse today.
Not just any mouse. A Razer Mouse.
Mmhmm, Chroma too.
I’ve forgotten the number of times i felt that familiar pain reeling through my body. The times where I’ve gone weak and perhaps sought whatever little faith I had for temporary comfort.
Surrounded by walls in a concrete jungle, the echoes are a constant reminder of how lonely and vulnerable we are as humans. How little, insignificant choices can bring about an immense regret, how a careless thought could bring about dire consequences.
Indeed, this is all too familiar, yet somehow while our minds tell us otherwise, we tend to sought the forbidden fruit, only to learn a short termed lesson from the pain, forgetting it soon after and repeating it once more.
This is life.
That very moment when you find solace comfort purging what was once, a part of you, deep within hidden from the eyes of many. We often put up a brave front, worried about the judgement and stares. Yet, deep down, we are all human and we tend to forget that our problem is not unique.
At the end of our journey, there are a few paths to take. In the outside world, sometimes circumstances are beyond your control as they are washed away like a storm even before you are ready. In the comforts of our own homes, we usually have control to prevent our pain from being seen by others.
Its an outlet of safety, yet it does have its consequences. We want to leave a clean slate, showing the world our best despite what we have gone through. Its a conscious choice to wash out whatever was left behind and start anew, from the moment you leave the door.
But i’ve learnt, after multiple recurrences, that somethings are just not meant to be.
And that was how I gave up Mcspicy 😐 #nomoreburning