I’ve forgotten the number of times i felt that familiar pain reeling through my body. The times where I’ve gone weak and perhaps sought whatever little faith I had for temporary comfort.
Surrounded by walls in a concrete jungle, the echoes are a constant reminder of how lonely and vulnerable we are as humans. How little, insignificant choices can bring about an immense regret, how a careless thought could bring about dire consequences.
Indeed, this is all too familiar, yet somehow while our minds tell us otherwise, we tend to sought the forbidden fruit, only to learn a short termed lesson from the pain, forgetting it soon after and repeating it once more.
This is life.
That very moment when you find solace comfort purging what was once, a part of you, deep within hidden from the eyes of many. We often put up a brave front, worried about the judgement and stares. Yet, deep down, we are all human and we tend to forget that our problem is not unique.
At the end of our journey, there are a few paths to take. In the outside world, sometimes circumstances are beyond your control as they are washed away like a storm even before you are ready. In the comforts of our own homes, we usually have control to prevent our pain from being seen by others.
Its an outlet of safety, yet it does have its consequences. We want to leave a clean slate, showing the world our best despite what we have gone through. Its a conscious choice to wash out whatever was left behind and start anew, from the moment you leave the door.
But i’ve learnt, after multiple recurrences, that somethings are just not meant to be.
And that was how I gave up Mcspicy 😐 #nomoreburning